Last day of 2009

Actually, last 4 hours of 2009. Awwww. I just couldn’t believe that 2010 is only hours away. I’d always feel that feeling every changing year. The intentions for bigger responsibility for new and old resolutions. The pressure I’m giving on to myself to be a better person. I’d always feel grateful that though I’m not another year older during the first day of the year, I’m still able to experience it.

2009 is not my year, not our country’s year but I am hoping, crossing my fingers that 2010 will change everything. I learned a lot this year and I’m thankful for that. I’m happy for even things weren’t good as I wanted them to be, I handled them well. So thank you 2009. For making me realize a lot, for making me grow.

Year, you’re a year older in hours what can you say? Everyone’s waiting for you. Come on! 2010, challenge me.

God bless us all. :)

I fell for you without you making any move

My love life is such a failure and I don’t wonder much why.

I fell in like for this guy (he could be gay, I’m not sure though) for 10 months and 15 days.

That’s sure a long time hoping, assuming and anticipating for good things to happen between us but nothing happened. Just bolahan. We never even talked personally. Well, he said hi once. He had an opportunity. I smirked.

Seriously, I’m tanga for wasting almost a year. I know, we’re pare and mare but that’s just it. Friends have endearment and I should have thought earlier that endearments are not exclusively for couples who are in love.

FAIL

I’m fatter than you think

Seriously, this fatness is over killing my confidence.

Seriously, I’m becoming desperate again and again.

Seriously, I’m tired of being fat but I don’t know how to get rid of it.

Seriously, I hate my parents for having a bad cultured lifestyle.

Seriously, I must not use the computer anymore especially after meals because it only makes my belly bigger.